It was just confirmed, that I did indeed miscarry my second child in 2 years. At 6 weeks 5 days. The worst thing in the world is to hear, "There are no fetal heart tones". Next to that, "We don't believe your HCG levels are rising fast enough to sustain pregnancy." I will know for sure what my Progesterine  and HCG Levels are. The other thing, is that They believe I have 7 fluid filled cysts on my ovaries. 3 on the right, and 4 on the left. I thought I could handle this better, being my second miscarriage and all....Guess I was wrong...So for the following update, it will be kids.

Hey Everyone!!

I could really use your support with Big Brothers Big Sisters of Barton County, Bowl for Kids Sake. The Deadline is March 8th! My teammates and I are working hard to achieve this for those kids, because EVERY kid deserves a chance. And EVERY kid deserves a hero.
Be a hero, and help us out!

You can visit my webpage and make a pledge/donation at:

http://www. kansasbigs. org/bfks/bowlerview. aspx?id=jessicabowlby

At the website you have the choice to pay with a credit card, or have big brothers big sisters send you a bill after the bowling date. This is really a great cause and my personal goal is $200.00, but to raise more would be a wonderful asset to everyone involved!! I did a simple donation of 20.00 as most did, but the minimum is $5.00. I hope you'll find it in your hearts to help this organization, but more importantly, I hope you'll help these kids get the chance at a better future for themselves.

Thank You Everyone! Your pledge CAN make a difference!!

Your support is GREATLY appreciated!!

Thanks!
Jessica Bowlby!

I took in a stray cat today. I named her Maggie. She's a pain in the ass. She ate like she's never eaten before. When you hold her you can feel her bones. So, I fed her. And, when she had to potty she meowed, and I let her out the front door. Just like a dog, and she went to the bathroom and came right back in. I think she's starting to trust me. I've only been home 4 hours with her,a nd she finally settled down and is trusting me.

I went to my aunts the other night, with every intention of staying over, however while she was at work, a bat somehow got into her house, and scared the shit out of me. So, I called my moms husband, and he and his son in law came over and the damn bat wouldn't come out of hiding, wherever he was. They were beginning to question my sanity. This morning, my aunt thought her dog made a mess on the floor so she went to clean it up, and it moved, it was the damn bat. I wasn't lying, and they can't make fun of me any more for it.

Today, while I was at my moms house, for yet another Christmas with everyone, we had a racoon in the back yard. The girls came in screaming that there was a racoon in the back yard and he was huge. we figured it was just a baby one, considering it was daylight out, we looked out the back door, and that sucker was huge. And, he looked sick. So, we called animal control, which is the department of fish and game here in Kansas, but no one was there, and so we called the ellsworth county sheriff's department, and the sheriff came out, acted like a dumbass towards the racoon and chased it into a tree. So then, after everyone left, it was mom chuck and i, with the cop, and the cop shot the racoon. I felt so terrible. The backyard bandit (as we have been calling him) was twitching and fidgiting after he shot him, like someone having a siezure. I almost started to cry. I sat there and watched him die. :( It was such a sad ending to the day.

I have a new weight loss idol for 2009. My goal is to lose 10-15 more pounds. Which should be easy enough after I have my gallbladder taken out.  Anyway, if you've seen stick it, it's the girl that plays Hayley. Melissa "Missy" Peregrym is her name. Google her. She rocks.